Internally Disorganized

 So I've decided to change my blog title! Fantasy/Reality has been fun, but it doesn't feel like an appropriate name for my blog anymore! 'Internally Disorganized' is what I've chosen for the new title.

 Now, when I say 'Internally Disorganized', I mean it in a good way. For as long as I can remember I've been an analyzer, almost a mental scribe as far as knowledge goes. I've always tried to figure every one out to the very core because it fascinated me. I even alienated my own friend for years! The thing is, I'll always do that at least on some level. It's just a part of my personality, y'know? Once I like something/someone, I always have to urge to find out everything about it/them. But I'm going to change my game.

 Instead of fixating on situations and people, I'm going to just go with it. Learn as I go along and find out things during the journey. I've always tried to have the upper hand in friendships, always tried to make sure I could hit back twice as hard if they hit first. Now, I'm going to try to do something I've never really tried before. Trusting my friends whole-heartily.  Instead of always trying to seem indifferent, I'll try to be open with them. It's something I've never really done before, but something I need to do.

 Analyzing aside, the whole 'Internally Disorganized' thing is also a good example of my mind and emotions.  Things always fly by so fast, I just never take the time to voice them or never take the time to really think about my feelings. Not only that, but add all of my stories and characters to the mix and you have one heck of a mess!

 So there's the new title explanation. Hope you enjoyed!

- Laura.