Rodeo

Ahhh, so it's finally rodeo weekend and it's so nice to finally have a break. Especially cause I get to go hiking and filming + a mall trip with my friend. A three-day school week isn't too bad either, omg. Oh the downside, next monday I have my Reading/Writing AIMS. My honors teacher seemed pretty confident about me doing well, but I'm still p nervous. I want to get a 6 and possibly get a scholarship, and to do that I really have to get creative with the essay.

Other than that, I wanted to kind of make this a mental health update. I don't know how everything's going really, it's been pretty wonky lately. My anger issues have been picking up, but in a way its reasonable because there have been a lot of stupid crossing into my life. So, lots o anger/irritation. I've also been wanting to be alone a lot more lately? Like, I have my group of friends that I love, and my best friend who I adore, but some other ones are just killing me cause we're too different.

It's nice though because I've been making new friends, but right now I really just want May to be here so I can get out of this state. The wait is killing me, and I really want to get out to NY and DC.

My anxiety has been down a lot lately, and I think I'm on the verge of being a lot more confident. Last night I was reading some stuff and it made me realize that I have one life, and what's life without a few regrets? I think finding a channel to plug my frustration into would be healthy. There's football and wrestling at my highschool (for everyone) and I've been thinking about wrestling for a really long time. That, or maybe running. Just something I can vent through without thinking much. I think I can do it, and if not through sports, painting. Since last year I've been getting more and more into it, and I think I'm finally going to start doing canvas work this month.

This has been an update;

Ciao!