Sometimes I wonder how we, as human beings, can be so fucking disgusting.
There are so many good people in the world, and every day they make a difference and impact people with their personalities and successes. Without good people, the world wouldn't be nearly as beautiful as it is today. I really wish there were more people like that around.
Today I was browsing my Tumblr dash when a particular post came up. It was a post about a blog called "There Will Be Bones", or more popularly known as "Pro-a-n-a". The blog is run by a girl who promotes anorexia and eating disorders because she thinks they're good and that full grown women should be around 90 pounds or less. 90 being a tad chubby.
She posts pictures of girls and women, who look beautiful and healthy, and called them obsese, fat, lard-asses, and all sorts of things. She posts "tips" on how to easily throw up food when you're done eating and all kinds of different methods to lose weight. And people read and use those tips. There was one post from one of her followers saying how she had gone from 250 to 90 in one week, and she was thanking this pro-a-n-a for it.
Losing weight that fast is dangerous. She could die from that.
I read through some of her posts and went through at least two pages before leaving the computer and going straight to the bathroom because I felt sick. I sat in the shower and cried like a frickin' baby because I couldn't handle it. I couldn't handle how hateful this girl was. I can't handle how hateful she is.
This wasn't the first time I've ever found something disturbing on Tumblr. Last month I was doing what I was doing today, going through my daily messages and e.c.t when a video popped up. I didn't read the comments below and clicked on the video to see what it was.
The video showed a man rolling around on some asphalt, a few seconds later a few guys came in and starting kicking him. They kicked him over and over and over, and when he tried running away one of the guys got a wooden chair and started beating him with it. He fell down and they kept going. It went on for a few minutes and the longer the video went the more people you could see standing by, watching.
After another few minutes one of the guys grabbed some fuel and set him on fire. So the man stood up and started running away. He tripped and started rolling around again so the fire would go out. It did. Then the other guys caught up with him and set him on fire again, but not before kicking him a few times. Once he was on fire again one of the guys grabbed a desk and threw it at him, breaking the desk and crushing him in place. They walked away while the camera-man stayed and listened to him scream.
During this whole thing there must've been at least 100 people in the immediate area. Cars drove by, things went on as normal as any other day. Noone even stopped to help.
That man was tortured, kicked, burned, almost run over, hit over the heat with chairs and a desk, and eventually left to die in the middle of the road. Because he was gay.
I didn't know what to do after that, and for the first time in months I just burst out crying. And I did again today when I thought about that video and that Tumblr blog.
Earlier this month I found another thing.
It was a news artical about a 11 year old boy who'd commited suicide by shooting himself in the head. He did it because he was intensely bullied about his limp caused by a medical condition. The artical had pictures of him, smiling, hugging his dad, riding his bike. He was eleven.
I've never had much hope for human beings. Only recently have I started to find the good people. But at times like this, when I find these things, things that parents would never want their kids to see or be exposed too, I can't stand it. I can't stand it because I know there are much worse things that have happened. Internets sites and blogs like Pro-a-n-a and Encyclopedia Dramatica have been a slap in the face because I know that there's worse. And excluding internet hate and malice, there IRL things going on too. Things like the 1%, the Tea Party, homophobia, colleges getting more and more expensive by the year, no jobs, men and women getting raped or raping, pedophiles, death, famine..
I don't want to live in a world like this, but hell if I'll kill myself over a few assholes. I'm gonna help fix this place, because you know what? There are too many good people that suffer. I can't do much now, but I swear to God, as soon as I can, I will.
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